Yeap, it’s the 1st of July already…Time is on V Power i suppose. Ticking all the way without stopping. I’m in the library nw, waiitng for my next lecture at 1pm. I’m eating chicken biscuits…it’s the ebst hehe~Curi makan here 
Holiday: It was super short la…2wks, but better th none also la. Had a great time with my family, went to Haadyai with my mum haha~seriously, when you still ahve money you can’t stop buying stuff, that includes chicken…those REAL ones haha~When we were at the border, my mum asked we still have money right, lets buy some chickens haha~i bought my corn also la
Our drivers were all the grumpy ones haha~the funniest thing was the aunties. They talk like my beloved Fiao and Von haha~Gao shoot ppl lo. Shoot the drivers haha~Funny sia :P
Eventhough corazon and i didn’t manage to go on our adventure trips like how we usually do, we did alot of hiking hehe~counted as one d lo
Bt still time spent is never enough…liek what we always say, enough is never in our dictionary haha~
As for friends, the first night i spent in Penang was with my dad’s HK friends later own joined, Jin, Tatt, Eng and Chuan for supper at Old Town. They trying to block my brother from any chances of being able to see people haha~Put him at a corner, make him sit at position whr he is facing the wall haha~That was hilarious!
I think i shall just go one day at a time…it’s only 14days
Day 1: Arrived at 6smtg am…was still sleeping until they turned on the lights to tell us that we have arrived. Quickly called corazon as he is going to pick me up for the first time haha~Asked him not to brush his teeth too cause i dun want to be the only one with bad breath ma :P Went home, ah de gave me a good facial, Shaun still sleeping, mum was ready to listen to my stories, planned my day with corazon…He went back and will be taking me out for dim sum at around 9smtg. Talked to mum until it was time to get ready, went for dim sum with corazon, went back home as he need to settle his stuff, went to HP for lunch with the HKies and Mrs. Ho and then went back home to finish up all my hw. Hardoworking leh haha~Th sent to HP by corazon, th it was dinner and then supper.
Ok, maybe it’s a bad idea to say that i want to tell you about my everyday during my break. Jsut give you some highlights la
Went out with Louis…manage to meet him after 2years. Went to Gurney with him, met his parents haha~cute mum :P Also did a surprise party for him. It was worth it after seeing him smiling like crazy and his parents smiling for him :) He will be going back on Sat, what i can say is that im going to miss him. Be, i dun mean to make you jealous or what but he is someone that i really cherish in life
Went back to school too. Haha~saw Pn. Liew our tai ka jie. Talk and talk ni haha~It was fun!!!
Sorry that this blog is a bit messy. I feel like cancelling this blog as im writing this to be read myself haha~Going to get ready for lecture soon. If this is my last post. I would like to thank everyone for everything and ya, Ivan will be back tomorrow…AHHHHHH~~~~!!!! Haha~Ms. Janis Khoo Wen Li ending here…maybe forever :’)
Yes, as you can see from my title im dedicating this blog to IEF. IEF stands for International Economics and Finance. I duno what to blog about. I just want to encourage myself by writing a blog
As i look at the book. Reading it, highlighting those important points. Feeling my heart beating veryvery fast. Thinking of wanting to finish everything. This tension is tiring me.
TO myself:
You go gal! You know you can do it. Yes, i know it’s very tough. The lecturer of no help at all. It’s all up to you nw. Take a deep breath, close your eyes. Think of the happy moments and continue with IEF. It’s just a module. After this term…one more term to go and you are off with it. Dun listen to those FIT takers of wanitng to show off. You selected IEF yourself and im sure you didn’t regretted it because you know what you want in the future. You know what your goal is. It isn’t all about getting higher CGPA bt being knowledgable. Being able to fulfill your dream. Strengthen yourself, smile for everything, smile having a wonderful family. Smile for you are never alone.
To everyone: I know that everyone will be having thier exam soon. If you are feeling frustrated and tired. You just want to give up. Never give up! Pls dun! I rber i used to say, i dun have to be the best as long as i strive for it. Yes, after coming here, comparing woth others, wanting to be the best…all these are so materialistic! Can being the best getting no.1, going through all this tears and heartbreaking moments compare to living a victorious life? Living a joyful life?
Lord, i know that You will never forsake me, you see my everything. You will never ever let me go. Thank You. Lord God, i ask You to help me in my module. Help me to understand, help me to apply, help to answer it well. Please be with me in this test period. Bless me with peace and joy o’Lord. In Jesus Name pray. Amen!.
Jiayu everyone! We can do it. YES! We can!!! :D:D:D
This is a prayer to God. Thanking Him for leading me throughout my life. Thanking Him for never letting me go
Dear Lord,
Thank you for guiding me through everything. From Primary to Secondary, and nw to poly. Helping me to adapt to my surroundings as they change at all stages. From a chinese school into a national school. My Malay language can never make it bt through you it did. Into CGL i went. Didn’t know what to do. Sat with only a few friends that i hardly talk to from my primary school. On my last year of Secondary, the last day of me going into the classroom. You were thr. As i went through every paper of SPM, from the first to the last you were thr. Blessing me with a supportive family encouraging friends. Thank you Lord.
When someone who was once dear in my heart, walked out of my life, my heart broke…you were thr. Blessing me with understanding parents who were my best friends at that time, at that moment. When beads and beads of tears start flowing down my cheeks. You were thr to wipe them all away. Thank you Lord.
As i waved my family and friends goodbye…walking into the aeroplne. My heart pumping faster and faster, filled with mixed feelings. Im afriad, im excited, bt out of it im determine. Determined to walk closer to strive harder for my dreams. On my first night in Singapore, chatting with my friends as if im still in Pg.
Taking my first bus ride, getting lost for the first time, crying on the bus for the first time, feeling so stupid for the first time, feeling so alone, wondering did i ever made the wrong decision coming here, that was when you blessed me with angels. Telling me that my home is always in my heart. Telling me that You are with me. My Hiding Place family, the Chan Family, the Chua family, Linda, YiJing, Anand. Friends that can make me feel myself.
Mum, dad, Shaun, Evan, Ivan, Patches…Thank you for being thr throughout my life except ah de 
Thank you MJ for never letting our friendship go, for never giving up this friendship. You were the one that made me think that i have a friend when i thought i lost all. Thank you for giving me a blissful journey from the 5th of Oct till nw.
As i shed today, not because im feeling sad bt because im feeling close to God. He was there and He is still here for me. Tomorrow is my 2nd week of my 2nd year. I may not truly know anyone there. Or i may still have question marks surrounding me in my IEF module, may i rber that God was thr and He is still here up till nw. Thank you everyone for caring for me, for welling to spend your time reading this. There may only be one or two of you bt one or two is better th a whole bunch.
I will strive and will never give up…do my best and God will do the rest. Devoting everything to HIm…Amen!
As you can see from my title that…it’s a weekend!!!Hehe~im bet everyone loves weekends unless you are working fulltime in a restaurant!
So fast almost a week d…time past very fast. Dun look at the clock and it will past even faster…trust me i tried it for many years hehe~
I’m gonna do my blog in a different way nw…i will start with a word and i will elaborate on it. Lets see if it works :D
My day: Had a short day today. Started class at 9am ended at 11am. You may be wondering why is my class so short and start thinking that poly life is so realxing. Ya! This relaxation will only last till today. After that, my timetable will be –> Mon and Tue : 9am-4pm –>Wed : 9am-3pm –>Thur : 8am-12pm –> Fri : 9am-1pm. Bear in mind that I have to wake up two hours before class starts everyday as it takes me around one hour plus to go to school. Bt im used to it d so no worries anymore 
This wk we only had lectures thats why i start later and end earlier. Todays lecture was SOM, Service Operations Management. It sounds ok so far…hope it does through out hehe. Yday i had my IS(Interdisciplinary Studies) module. I gt Service Innovation. Thought it would be more on talking or how to serve customers BUT it was more to a more advance CATS to be creative, in producing your product. Starting from this week we have assessments d. This wk was 10% and next week till the 28th of May wk it will be 30% EVERY WK. Praise the Lord for everything hehe.
After class sat a bus to Gleneagles to visit uncle Philip. Im good in taking publilc transport nw haha~Unc Philip was warded on Tue due to his stubborness (not sure of the spelling) of not taking medication for the past 6months. He has cancer and hep B. He is stil feeling giddy till today. Hehe~you can see empty bottles of hong yiu beside his bed. When i went in i tot i went into a flower shop haha~you can see hampers of flowers and fruits. Thr were so many fruits th aunt CN ask me to take bck some. Bt i didn’t la, just ate a plum and some grapes. They are like my parents here in Spore. It’s nice to be with them even when we are in the hosp
After that went home to sleep d…bt can’t really sleep due to the heat. My goodness! Usually i will be sleeping like a pig espcially on a Friday bt i can’t this time. My 2fans were switched on and still…SUNSHINE TO MY WINDOW! I think i should thank the sunshine hehe~
Yeap, i suppose that wraps up my day
Accomplishments : I manage to finish all my hw. Nt much of hw yet la. I think it’s the group work that is a pain…No worries, i’ve done group work for a year d 
As i will be taking IEF (International Economics and Finance) this sem, i find it challenging nw. Maybe because im still without a textbook yet gua. The lecturer was scary and still is…my goodness the first thing she talked about was about the group project th she proceed and starting lecture, without any slides which made most of my friends and i flipping the lecture notes wondering whr she is nw. Smtms lecturers think that they know so much that they dun even need slides bt actually…if you are a good lecturer you need slides. Not for your own benefit bt for the students. We are here to learn, not to be tortured by having paper cuts while flipping papers hehe~That’s only my personal opinion la. She is an experienced lecturer that’s why she dun nids slides i suppose
No matter what, i pray and hope by the second or third wk i can get a clear pic of the module or rather maybe during tutorial. Liek what Han Pin and corazon told me, it’s only the first wk after that all the question marks will be answered. It’s always the first step that is hardest
Blessings for the day : Hiding Place received blessings from someone…4boxes of jeans…in total around 150 pair of jeans…new or second hand ones. They are branded ones leh! I took three hehe, two blue on black (skinny jeans-recommended by Vinay). Also took a few for my family and bf
We also received 30boxes of orange juice today…Florida Natural lo siao siao. It’s going to expire d la by 2nd of May so i only have around a wk to consume everything :p
Aunt Esther gave me Tango orange juice haha~ NICE!
Aunt CN gave me a big bottle of peach tea~ Haven’t try it yet
Being able to bless others is a blessing
About myself : I applied to be a tutor and facilitator and also to be a volunteer in SPCA hehe~For the tutoring…thanks to Melissa for the contacts. They were very efficient. That night itself i received an assignment but too bad la they only want morning…Mrover mama was saying that to be a facilitator is enough d. No matter what, see what God has for me la
Facilitator is actually being a storyteller to the kids. I think i will enjoy that job. Hope and pray that they would say yes
As for the SPCA thing…As i dun like joing CCA due to laziness and timing i decided to make myself useful to the animals. Haven’t apply yet as im waiting to fax it and i think i can only do that maybe next wk as i always fail being able to meet aunt Sally. I knw i will feel good helping
In class, i feel like a new gal. Even the first day of poly. I had a diff lecture with my closer friends as they choose a diff module (IEF) they chose FIT so nw i will see less of Linda. I knw she will miss me more th Ernest hehe~
I just pray that i will ahve good team members and that will be enough…excellent!
Happenings around me : Ivan –> Has his ping pong match today…he gt GOLD. Wuhoo~thumbs up for him. He said that the gals wil be playing for the semis
Han Pin –> He bought his sniper…ya, the gun sniper. It’s not 100% metal so it doesn’t kill bt it will if you aim at the RIGHT target or at a closer distance. He is working nw…trainee in a restaurant part time in Genova nw. He has to prepare himself for the 6months training from July to Dec
Evan –> Has his own camera business nw, check this website, www.ekanograph.blogspot.com If you need any cameras no matter the normal or zoom zoom ones you can have it by just a click!
Ah De –> Is botak!Haha~
Shaun, papa and mama –> Went to TGIF to celebrate Shaun’s pay…he can save some more when i come back in June for Chillys haha~
Corazon –> He is in Fettes Park eating my fav western food with his friends. Gosh! I can’t believe i din go thr during my 7wks break…I wonder why
He will be going down to Malacca tomorrow morning, going down to Singapore hehe~and th coming back to Pg on Friday night as his cousin is getting married on Sat
Ting An and Sharon –> They are having their study break and are burning the midnight oil nw…i think
Melissa –> Will be starting poly next wk. Ohoh~
I suppose that’s about it for the ppl around me
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Learnings for the day :
Health - Important TIPS
1) Answer the phone by LEFT ear.
2) Do not drink coffee TWICE a day
3) Do not take pills with COOL water.
4) Do not have HUGE meals after 5pm.
5) Reduce the amount of OILY food you consume.
6) Drink more WATER in the morning, less at night.
7) Keep your distance from hand phone CHARGERS.
Do not use headphones/earphone for LONG period of time.
9) Best sleeping time is from 10pm at night to 6am in the morning.
10) Do not lie down immediately after taking medicine before sleeping.
11) When battery is down to the LAST grid/bar, do not answer the phone as the radiation is 1000 times.
MIss Khoo signing off, wishing everyone a happy happy weekend
Hey folks, im back!!! It’s been a veryvery long time since i ever updated this blog. I was very busy th lazy hehe~I had a veryvery hectic week in Feb and then i later enjoyed my holiday…working, enjoying, family, friends, love one.
A short recap on what i’ve been doing in the month of March:
Worked in Azuma, enjoyed the people thr, and kakak also hehe~Learnt alot about Japanese stuff (Food, people, cutlery, language) Earned alot thr too!
I’m not going to talk anything about the month of March coz it’s the past and i enjoyed and appreciated every moment thr, with my family, papa, mama, Shaun, Evan in Ipoh, Ivan in webcam and Ah De, his silliness and corazon.
This blog is more about my gratefulness towards my family and friends and also to myself on telling myself to jiayu
Papa: Thank you for everything, the funny messages that smtms i dun quite understand or dun quite knw how to reply. Your jokes, the way you sit in church, the way you talk without your fake teeth hehe~And most of all the way you encouraged me when i was going through my exam period…your three friends. And of course the words you wrote on my whiteboard. I saw it and i look at my mirror. Keep on Keeping on. Thank you pa, i love you. I will keep going on because i knw i have God, your 3friends, my family, friends. Thank you
Mama: You were my heart’s comforter, especially when i was going through that stressful period. Your calls, your prayers everything. And nw, im starting to miss your voice asking me to do this and that. You were my strength ma, of course God is too. I love you and thank you. I’m missing the moments we had when we turn to 861 is it? Listening to oldies, shaking my leg doing my devotion as you doze off patting ah de.
To my brothers: Thank you for everything too. Webcamming with Ivan, sharing my feelings, showing off his Eiffel Tower. Kor, you will be back soon :) Evan’s pot belly, the Ipoh moment we had when i first arrive, the silly horror movie. The Antivirus thingy. Shaun…enjoy working. I knw you miss me voice. Just sms me when you miss me k hehe. Thank you all, you were my joy when i look into the photos
Corazon: I love you. I know you have been feeling very yi han. Pls dun. We are positive couples. You fetching me back home from work, the suppers we had that rounded you belly hehe~our 5th and 6th anniversaries. You studying, me sleeping, cooking and watching TV and reading too! Enjoy your holidays! You deserve it! We may not have spent more time with each other due to the cruelty of time but we will definitely spend more time with each other in the future. I know we will. Let’s work hard for our future! For our dreams
To Ah De: As i hugged you before i step out of the house. I din knw why i cried. I never did last few times. Bt this time, i did. I will miss you ah de. Your barking, your licking. I love you. You are not just a dog, you are my family. The feeling of knowing that you will be waiting for me, thinking that i will be back but actually not is so … sad. I love you de, take care of mama.
To myself: Jiayu! Dun be afraid, cause God is with you. Not forgetting your family and friends too. Go for it girl! Just like you always do! We may not be the best, but we strive to be. Never compare, never ever look down on yourself. Dun ever doubt yourself, dun ever think that you are alone cause you are never alone. You have a wonderful family, a loving boyfriend, a happy family in Singapore and also a whole bunch of blessed friends. Thank you God for being with me in my first year. I knw you will continue to be with me in my second year here. Bless me with a positive spirit, a strong determination, a wide smile, a grateful heart.
Signing off, excited about tomorrow, BComm class at 11pm, International Economics and Finance lecture at 2pm…End my day at 4pm. Thrill, excited, nervous, missing home, in love, happy, sleepy. Yeap, that’s how im feeling nw. THank you Jesus :D
You see, my corazon and i have a habit of sharing what we have learned everyday. So i would post to him my devotion and he will do the same thing
And this is it, it was the devotion on the 4th:
Luke 15:11-24
The Parable of the Lost Son
(11)Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. (12)The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.
(13)“Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. (14)After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. (15)So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. (16)He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
(17)“When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! (18)I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. (19)I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.’ (20)So he got up and went to his father.
“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
(21)“The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.
(22)“But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. (23)Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. (24)For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector (God’s grace and forgiveness)
(9)To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: (10)“Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. (11)The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. (12)I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’
(13)“But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
(14)“I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”
Parable= A simple story with a moral or religious purpose, especially told by Jesus Christ
Talmud= A collection of truths of the Jewish writing
This parable is a very famous story, im not sure whether have you heard of this story before, in chinese it’s called “Lang Zhi Hui Tou”. This parable is told by Jesus to showcase God’s love for repentant sinners. No matter how much we have wronged God, he will always forgive us just like the father in the parable and give us the best again…God also gives a choice whether to stay with Him or the opposite. The father in the story never forced his son to stay at home but gave him a choice and patiently waited for him to come back.
Today, i asked God to take control of my words today, may they tell of Your great love. And may the story of Your grace turn some heart to You above.
Every Christian has their own story…For me, i’m a borned in Christian, that means my parents are both Christians therefore since birth i always attend Sunday school and church service. I was baptized in the year 2003, 26th of Dec. I wanted to live for God and to honour him in the future. We are baptized with water, it indicates that as we enter the water, we die together with God, we are willing to glorify God for our whole life. And when we get out of the water, that’s shows that, we raise together with Jesus.
Until the year of 2008, when i came to Singapore to study…I started to realize how wonderful God’s love, His grace, His mercy, the first lesson that i learned in Singapore is that my hand is in His hand, i was really very lonely in Singapore, i have wonderful people around me but i’m someone who doesn’t really know how to express my doubts, my worries, my sadness (I’m learning). I felt so lonely, i felt empty…That’s when i heard of a song, “With All I Am” that song really brought me to tears. I felt so foolish, all along God was thr for me. He was waiting for me to open the door for Him to come into my heart, to come into my life. Of course, this isn’t the end of my sorrows, i learned to be less independent and to be more dependent to God (did i spell it correctly?)
Everyday in Singapore, is a roller coaster to me, until today it still is. I miss home, i miss my family, i miss you, i miss everything in Penang. When im here, i duno who to go to…i cna’t get a hug from anyone, there isn’t shoulder for me to cry one…like what the pastor said before, When you are weak, that’s when God is strong. I totally agree with him. I’m not strong…im only strong because of God.
Of course, i thank God for everything, for you, for the people in Singapore, and especially my family. They are the best, you are also included as my family. Thank you so much, you have been a great comfort to me. WIthout you, i dun think i can be stand staying here for a minute or a second. Thank you so much for wanting to have a relationship with me. You are the only who were there for me whenever i felt that i dun even have a friend. Thank you Tan Min Jie. I love you so much…I’m crying
Tomorrow is our 4th month of being together :) Thank you for holding onto me for 4months. It must be tough…I give you My Story as a present. A wonderful present to you i give about something that have guided me through my life. I love you my darling :*
Today was the last day of school…officially the last day and my last lesson is LMS…Life Mnagement Skills. We were asked to write a success letter to our lecturer, Miss Anne Marie for the year 2014. And surprisingly, during class everyone of us are suppose to read it out and after that everyone will stand up and clap very cheerfully and supportively. It was very wonderful, i felt really motivated and all thanks to miss Anne.
At the end, i gave her a hug and told her thank you very much for all the values you have thought me. Do you know, if Miss Janis Khoo Wen Li gives you a hug, that means you are really someone in her heart.
As usual, to invite my weekend, i went to Old Chang Kee hehe it’s amazing man, for the first time, i bought the fried squid…Oh my gosh!!!It was lovely! Delicious! Tasty! vERY NICE!!!Haha~i knw what i can do when im feeling very stress out, is to eat OLD CHANG KEE haha~
Yday, i had a very moving decotion time also, it was about peace. It states that Do not worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need. And when you pray, always give thanks and God’s peace will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. THe peace that Gid gives is so great that we cannot understand it. Amen to that…after that, i praise God and sent a sms to my family telling them about this devotion. I gt replies and they go like this:
Papa: Already send pa2 3fren 2b n stay around u. Anytime, anywhere cal Him. We r al here h.p.Ma2 abt 2 go home 2watch ,movie wit L/boy. pa go 4cofe. pa will remember U in prayer n spirit
Mama: God always knows d burdens in our hearts n if we walk with Him, He never fails 2 show how near He really is n wat a wonderful Saviour we hv. Luv fr all at home
Shaun: Sory my hp was on silent. Dun overstress urself. If u aint better den me itz gud 2b 2nd best:)God Bless
Evan: God n ur family is with u as well..During dis study period is where u learn 2 b strong n handle pressure. Bt the most of all is 2 experience God dat live in u
Amen to all…signing off nw
I’m back…duno whether to feel sad or to feel happy. Sad because im back for INTENSIVE life training and happy because it’s for my future. The funny thing about this time of coming back is that, i miss more than i always do. Mum, i miss you! Of course my family and my putera but this is a feeling that i dun usually have. I think nw i understand how Ivan feels…i think i should feel contented with what i have as im more fortunate th anyone else. ***** (5stars for that)
I’m a bit worried…ok, im worried! Of my studies, test, my future etc… Din really had my Sunday nap as usual as i was thinking. Smtms i think im nuts, coz what for worry for the future when i haven’t even completed my present. I think the answer is “i want assurance” I hope my alliance i doing their job *** 3stars for that.
Everyone is busy with the Bazaar, i quite excited about it also as this is my first time. I can hear voices, footsteps of ppl walking here and thr, almost the whole day. They are busy busy busy, smtms i have to act busy also haha~Not really la, i just do my assignments and studies in my room. The most “kek hei” thing is that the uncles think im SLEEPING!!! I do sleep bt im not always sleeping!!! At least i do wake up whenever i fall asleep, like what unc Edmund preached this morning, thank God for keeping me alive. ***** (5stars for that)
Tomorrow would be the first day of poly after 3weeks of break. I can sense, assignments and studies coming up… =/ It’s ok, give me some semangat ppl!!! YAYA! I know i can, i believe i can, i believe God is thr for me and i know my family and YOU will be thr for me! Thank you for all the support and encouragement, if it weren’t for all of you, i would have gone under depression and end up at my bf’s home, opp Shan Shan school (a moon for that!)
I had a great break, like i always do. You can see through the pics and i would like to thank my dad, eventhough he isn’t at home always but im sured that he is working his butt out for my family and i appreciate that. Thank you ma, you were always thr through tears and joy, encouraging and motivating me, teaching me what to do. I love you so much. Shaun, for being an ah beng as usual. Thank you for the laughter. Evan, for bringing back dramas for us to watch, helping out to make my day. Ah De, for licking me and always welcoming me with a helicopter tail. I miss you ah de. Last but not least, my beloved prince charming who has been thr for me all the time. Bringing me around, exploring and going through different adventures. For letting me bullying you and giving me a reason to smile. ‘Lucky’ is our song but fortunate is how i feel.
Thank You Jesus for everything, wonderful people around me. Forgive me for not appreciating. Bless me with a heart and thankfulness and a heart of joy as i continue of journey of life in Singapore. I know im weak and that’s when You are strong. Thank You for blessing me with wonderful family and friends, i ask you to bless the, abundantly also o’Lord. Help them in every way and life. Lord God, may we always know that our hands are in Yours. I love you Lord and may i Love you even more in the coming days. Thank You Jesus, in Jesus Name Pray, AMEN!!!
It’s our 3months anniversary tomorrow, thank you for everything. Love you miss you
I’m back…duno whether to feel sad or to feel happy. Sad because im back for INTENSIVE life training and happy because it’s for my future. The funny thing about this time of coming back is that, i miss more than i always do. Mum, i miss you! Of course my family and my putera but this is a feeling that i dun usually have. I think nw i understand how Ivan feels…i think i should feel contented with what i have as im more fortunate th anyone else. ***** (5stars for that)
I’m a bit worried…ok, im worried! Of my studies, test, my future etc… Din really had my Sunday nap as usual as i was thinking. Smtms i think im nuts, coz what for worry for the future when i haven’t even completed my present. I think the answer is “i want assurance” I hope my alliance i doing their job *** 3stars for that.
Everyone is busy with the Bazaar, i quite excited about it also as this is my first time. I can hear voices, footsteps of ppl walking here and thr, almost the whole day. They are busy busy busy, smtms i have to act busy also haha~Not really la, i just do my assignments and studies in my room. The most “kek hei” thing is that the uncles think im SLEEPING!!! I do sleep bt im not always sleeping!!! At least i do wake up whenever i fall asleep, like what unc Edmund preached this morning, thank God for keeping me alive. ***** (5stars for that)
Tomorrow would be the first day of poly after 3weeks of break. I can sense, assignments and studies coming up… =/ It’s ok, give me some semangat ppl!!! YAYA! I know i can, i believe i can, i believe God is thr for me and i know my family and YOU will be thr for me! Thank you for all the support and encouragement, if it weren’t for all of you, i would have gone under depression and end up at my bf’s home, opp Shan Shan school (a moon for that!)
I had a great break, like i always do. You can see through the pics and i would like to thank my dad, eventhough he isn’t at home always but im sured that he is working his butt out for my family and i appreciate that. Thank you ma, you were always thr through tears and joy, encouraging and motivating me, teaching me what to do. I love you so much. Shaun, for being an ah beng as usual. Thank you for the laughter. Evan, for bringing back dramas for us to watch, helping out to make my day. Ah De, for licking me and always welcoming me with a helicopter tail. I miss you ah de. Last but not least, my beloved prince charming who has been thr for me all the time. Bringing me around, exploring and going through different adventures. For letting me bullying you and giving me a reason to smile. ‘Lucky’ is our song but fortunate is how i feel.
Thank You Jesus for everything, wonderful people around me. Forgive me for not appreciating. Bless me with a heart and thankfulness and a heart of joy as i continue of journey of life in Singapore. I know im weak and that’s when You are strong. Thank You for blessing me with wonderful family and friends, i ask you to bless the, abundantly also o’Lord. Help them in every way and life. Lord God, may we always know that our hands are in Yours. I love you Lord and may i Love you even more in the coming days. Thank You Jesus, in Jesus Name Pray, AMEN!!!
It’s our 3months anniversary tomorrow, thank you for everything. Love you miss you
I’m back…duno whether to feel sad or to feel happy. Sad because im back for INTENSIVE life training and happy because it’s for my future. The funny thing about this time of coming back is that, i miss more than i always do. Mum, i miss you! Of course my family and my putera but this is a feeling that i dun usually have. I think nw i understand how Ivan feels…i think i should feel contented with what i have as im more fortunate th anyone else. ***** (5stars for that)
I’m a bit worried…ok, im worried! Of my studies, test, my future etc… Din really had my Sunday nap as usual as i was thinking. Smtms i think im nuts, coz what for worry for the future when i haven’t even completed my present. I think the answer is “i want assurance” I hope my alliance i doing their job *** 3stars for that.
Everyone is busy with the Bazaar, i quite excited about it also as this is my first time. I can hear voices, footsteps of ppl walking here and thr, almost the whole day. They are busy busy busy, smtms i have to act busy also haha~Not really la, i just do my assignments and studies in my room. The most “kek hei” thing is that the uncles think im SLEEPING!!! I do sleep bt im not always sleeping!!! At least i do wake up whenever i fall asleep, like what unc Edmund preached this morning, thank God for keeping me alive. ***** (5stars for that)
Tomorrow would be the first day of poly after 3weeks of break. I can sense, assignments and studies coming up… =/ It’s ok, give me some semangat ppl!!! YAYA! I know i can, i believe i can, i believe God is thr for me and i know my family and YOU will be thr for me! Thank you for all the support and encouragement, if it weren’t for all of you, i would have gone under depression and end up at my bf’s home, opp Shan Shan school (a moon for that!)
I had a great break, like i always do. You can see through the pics and i would like to thank my dad, eventhough he isn’t at home always but im sured that he is working his butt out for my family and i appreciate that. Thank you ma, you were always thr through tears and joy, encouraging and motivating me, teaching me what to do. I love you so much. Shaun, for being an ah beng as usual. Thank you for the laughter. Evan, for bringing back dramas for us to watch, helping out to make my day. Ah De, for licking me and always welcoming me with a helicopter tail. I miss you ah de. Last but not least, my beloved prince charming who has been thr for me all the time. Bringing me around, exploring and going through different adventures. For letting me bullying you and giving me a reason to smile. ‘Lucky’ is our song but fortunate is how i feel.
Thank You Jesus for everything, wonderful people around me. Forgive me for not appreciating. Bless me with a heart and thankfulness and a heart of joy as i continue of journey of life in Singapore. I know im weak and that’s when You are strong. Thank You for blessing me with wonderful family and friends, i ask you to bless the, abundantly also o’Lord. Help them in every way and life. Lord God, may we always know that our hands are in Yours. I love you Lord and may i Love you even more in the coming days. Thank You Jesus, in Jesus Name Pray, AMEN!!!
It’s our 3months anniversary tomorrow, thank you for everything. Love you miss you
Inexpressible…i way im feeling nw is…ya inexpressible hehe~I wun take it as a positive or negative thing, i shall just take it as a neutral feeling. Had been studying for the past few days as in PAST FEW DAYS. Feeling a bit boring nw. Finished my Law bt i still have several case studies to improve on. Went to work up with the guys just nw, had to do smtg either th studying. DIn reli exercise much, but if you count laughing as an exercise i shall take it as I DID alot of exercise. Watching boys were hilarious cararying the weights doing all sorts of work out and looking at the mirror made me LAUGH OUT LOUD!!! They said gals love 6pack guys and with strong chest…i’m like HAHA~Are you sure? Maybe im one of the minorities bt hehe~i can’t imagine i have a 6pack bf and someone with bigger chest compared to mine! -_-! GOSH! =O THat is very inexpressible haha~
Went to kepo on other ppl’s blog, reading this and that, trying to feel and understand how are they feeling nw. And i found smtg in common…everyone is working hard to be known, to be able to accepted bt others, to be apporved and also to look good at the outside. Everyone wants to look good, that they are willing to buy expensive stuffs gosh $300 just for a belt?!ARGH!!!That is RM800plus someone pls pawn that belt!I could use that money for smtg more meaningful but we live diff lifestyles, we are broght up in a diff environment…we are different. Im different
*Inexpressible*
Can’t say anything except that…let’s do it again,
*Inexpressible*
I think the hardest thing in life is to express yourself to the world. To be yourself in the eyes of the world. I used to be like that, but i realize smtg…im afraid to express myself as in MYSELF nw. I can only be myself when im home wearing my basketball shirt with my long batik pants?! Thr was once when i wore that attire out hehe~i can see people staring at me. I tot maybe i was being sensitive…until OOPS! i forgot to change. Hehe~but anyway, it’s night…ppl should sleep thats why we are dress like that hehe~
*Sigh…I just want to be me. I don’t need anything to make me special or to make me extraordinary. I only want to be ordinary and average. I seek ntg but contentment. “Inadequate” Pls leave me alone if you can.
There is a saying if you compare yourself to others, you will die. “Ren bi ren bi si ren” I agree with that. Dun compare me with others coz i dun compare and i dun want to. What’s the use? We are different. I did compared myself with ppl around me for i think…a week. It was a tragic. I can’t even stand looking a tmyself. I feel really very small being in this environment. Tiny…Micro… I can’t be like them. Nothing like that. I can’t even afford to be like that. Not the brains, not the looks, nothing… That’s when i feel, i need to go back to my micro planet. Their attitude towards life, their way of they interact. I dun learn it from my planet and i would not want.
Until one day, i thought of smtg, it doesn’t make me great by being great. It doesn’t make me feel better by even being great. By being great will only me me feel insecure. Insecure for being afraid that i might lose my place. That’s when i thought, being great is when i have great ppl around me. Eventhough i dun have my family, the one i love and my true friends who really care for me here in Singapore but there are close to me in my heart even if they are miles away. I have great ppl staying with me here in Singapore, uncle Bob buying supper later, he said it’s smtg special. That is great! Being surrounded by ppl who are *inexpressible* that is great.
Define successfuL: Successful is not being someone great in the world but to be someone of value.
My motivation for the month, “ We can’t always influence what others may say or do to us, but we can influence how we react to it” Hallelujah praise the Lord hehe~ Im affected by how ppl say the way they look at me but im not influenced! You know what is the trend nw?! Ugly is beautiful therefore we can conclude that Average is Great! Yes lah! Don’t challenge me, if not you shall be challenged! Toilet bowl! =P I just thought of it and randomly say it la…no special reason. Feeling better, im expressible nw. Continuing MIcroeconomics.
I have flowers in my room haha~Just for deco, took it from the chapel hall
Thank you for reading cause you are the one who understand me most :’)
